Mint Medley tea steeps as I bundle in bed sheets with propped pillows perching me, a humming laptop lightly illuminating my cheeks, and Mos Def whispering to my soul. Vicks Vapor Rub sits on the night-stand next to an unlit candle.
Had a sobering day relearning old life lessons: Don't take things personal.
Let a couple of people get me heated. Noses turned up. Under the breath comments. Thinking they know me. Thinking they know my situation better than I do. Judgmental, arrogant simple-minded surface dwellers who know nothing about me - they barely know themselves. Honestly. Those who concentrate on them and theirs - do they have time, energy, or interest to concern themselves with you and yours?
So, I had to take a step back. Press the rewind button on life. I've been here before. Who hasn't? Kind of hard not to. The mentality is so common place. The co-worker who shoots down your ideas because they didn't think of it. The cashier that got an attitude because they got your order wrong. The cousin who likes to argue at family get-togethers.
Life lesson revisited: Everybody has their own mountain to climb, their own road to travel, their own battles to pick and choose, and sometimes the battle they pick is you. Right or wrong. Big or small. Makes it easy to forget that the reality of the situation is beyond the surface. Past the surface is misinformation, confusion - sometimes, insecurities based on a deep abyss of fears. So, who am I to judge though I may be judged? Who am I that I should take things personally and be afflicted with the same aliment that infects their spirits? Should I be one to let my soul be consumed?
So, here I am. Curled up with a low-grade fever, runny nose, and aching body. Mint Medley tea still steeping. Vick's salve soothing me softly. Nursing myself. Concentrating on me. Letting this flu run its course. Letting this ache leave my system.
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